This is diary blog of me, but I didn't really post my every life, so confusing. I always got a lot of words in my head but when I open my computer, connect to the internet, it's quite too late at night to write the words and sometimes I don't really know where I need to start. There's lot of things happen a day, I found it hard to start the first sentence of my blog.
Now it's time for me to decide thing that may be the way for my future or I will be walk on a big circle to get into what I love to do. Some people said that you don't have to think about what you gonna do in the future since now, you can just try to try what you can first. 'Yes' this may a good answer for you if you haven't know your goal yet.
Oh it's remind me one story that my friend told me:
One person is carrying a heavy bag and getting to his house on the 80th floor, unfortunately, elevator is broken. So the only way that he can do is go to his house by ladder. He is happy to step on ladder from one step to another, up to 20th floor, he felt it's too heavy to carry the bag, so he drop it at the 20th floor and move on. Then he's got to the 40th floor, he feels a bit happy since he's got to the middle already. He still move on to 60th floor and he feels very happy because there's only 20 floor more that he need to go on. He's happy stepping on to the 80th floor, at last he's got his home, but the problem happens he forget to take his key with him, so he can't lock in the house, he kept the key in his bag, so he regret that he didn't get it along.
Anything else that you can compare this story to you life, I got a comparison, let's see if you agree on that:
THIS person is 'You' who have 80 years for life. The bag is your dream that you dream of when you were young, and up to 20, you've got lot of things to think and do, then you sway your goal or dream, after that you grow older to 40 years old and you feel happy since it's already half of your life, you don't care a lot, just move on with what you've got. Then up to 60 you happy again that you've got little time to live on, so you don't care much just be the way it is. When you reach 80, you start looking back to the young age and you realize that you have lost your dream, the dream that you already carry for 20 years, then........
Does it make sense to you? Hope it does.
That story remind me to think lot of think and I also don't know what I have done is right or wrong but I just know that now I really want to do it and want to have it. We can say that we will never know what's gonna happen tomorrow, so if we can't, just prepare for it and let's see what it'll turn to be.
I got lot of things to think now, whether I should doing my intern for the things I like or just do something else to get internship abroad. This will affect my future, I supposed it could.
Anyone can give me some ideas, welcome for those.
GOOD NIGHT, sweet dream :-)
