I'm coming back

I have suffer hard time in opening my blog, i don't know why i can't open it even at my school. I suppose I have lost this great blog of me. However, I am back :)

Today I want to talk about some happy thing of my friends that six of my classmates are going to do their internship at three difference Asian Country: India, Indonesia, and Malaysia. Without them, my class will be silent, because most of them are humour people, we like teasing each other about study, attitude, or even personnality. People around us may not feel uncomfort, when they saw us teasing each other but they may not know how fun we are.

Not only those have succeeded, other classmates have tried thier hard to make themseleves potential, some are applying for internship in international organizations, some already have good places to go. I also have to try hard to keep the same pace as them though I can't make it better.


Oh I forget to raise something:
There are two big mistake I have made this week: one is I was responsible for shooting the event of documentary film screening of my batch, unfortunately, half of my footage is silent movie that I didn't wear headphone to notice the volume. How come I am too stupid. So please be careful with it, it will be a silly mistake if u make it :( however; my classmate and lecturer are kindly enough to courage me to regard as a lesson. Thanks to them

Another one is I make a big mistake of breaking promise with my friend, he has told me about one internship abroad and he ask me not to tell anyone about it, but I have told some of my classmate, I do hate myself that I can't be a trustful person. I learn a big lesson now.

What can I say more?
Maybe I can say something about my study. Lecturers have screened lots of documentary films to us, I will try to write the film review of those. Those are Schindler's List, Dawin's Nightmare, Capitalism Love Story. Please stay tune to see it

I wish next time I can make some good news to post.

Thanks
Lovely wish

My Shooting

I mean that I am shooting a documentary about the "Finding Family" after the Khmer Rouge Regime. My protaganist is very smart guy I think. He is a very fexible, humor but tough.

Anyway I am also enjoy the moments that i and my friend stay at his house one night. He and his mother are so talkative and very friendly to us, I feel they like us just like their relatives. But after i think back i feel an uncomfortable things about what they do, I don't know why.

Being a Camerawoman is not easy, carrying a Camera all day long make me feel so exhausted, just wanna sleep without having a bath. Though it's hard job but i love it. I hope my production will get a recognition from other people.

Today, there are a lot of thing I raised, it's a bit complicated since i haven't written any article up to now. After I have a diary online, I rarely write the article to post. I will try to find something new for my blog

Thanks for your supports

GOOD LUCK

A simple story from a friend

This is diary blog of me, but I didn't really post my every life, so confusing. I always got a lot of words in my head but when I open my computer, connect to the internet, it's quite too late at night to write the words and sometimes I don't really know where I need to start. There's lot of things happen a day, I found it hard to start the first sentence of my blog.

Now it's time for me to decide thing that may be the way for my future or I will be walk on a big circle to get into what I love to do. Some people said that you don't have to think about what you gonna do in the future since now, you can just try to try what you can first. 'Yes' this may a good answer for you if you haven't know your goal yet.

Oh it's remind me one story that my friend told me:

One person is carrying a heavy bag and getting to his house on the 80th floor, unfortunately, elevator is broken. So the only way that he can do is go to his house by ladder. He is happy to step on ladder from one step to another, up to 20th floor, he felt it's too heavy to carry the bag, so he drop it at the 20th floor and move on. Then he's got to the 40th floor, he feels a bit happy since he's got to the middle already. He still move on to 60th floor and he feels very happy because there's only 20 floor more that he need to go on. He's happy stepping on to the 80th floor, at last he's got his home, but the problem happens he forget to take his key with him, so he can't lock in the house, he kept the key in his bag, so he regret that he didn't get it along.

Anything else that you can compare this story to you life, I got a comparison, let's see if you agree on that:

THIS person is 'You' who have 80 years for life. The bag is your dream that you dream of when you were young, and up to 20, you've got lot of things to think and do, then you sway your goal or dream, after that you grow older to 40 years old and you feel happy since it's already half of your life, you don't care a lot, just move on with what you've got. Then up to 60 you happy again that you've got little time to live on, so you don't care much just be the way it is. When you reach 80, you start looking back to the young age and you realize that you have lost your dream, the dream that you already carry for 20 years, then........

Does it make sense to you? Hope it does.

That story remind me to think lot of think and I also don't know what I have done is right or wrong but I just know that now I really want to do it and want to have it. We can say that we will never know what's gonna happen tomorrow, so if we can't, just prepare for it and let's see what it'll turn to be.

I got lot of things to think now, whether I should doing my intern for the things I like or just do something else to get internship abroad. This will affect my future, I supposed it could.

Anyone can give me some ideas, welcome for those.

GOOD NIGHT, sweet dream :-)

Why Woman Cannot be Stronger

This is either easy or hard question for some people. Normally, we know that the nature of women is powerless than men. Women are soft for both physic and mental, sometimes cold sometimes hot, complicate feeling just like a dept of ocean difficult to measure.

Men are more likely to be tough, strong both physic and mental, and so on. To me, I don't how men's feeling are but I would say that Men should be more respect to women.

Though, women need more care and respect from men, I would suggest they should be as strong as they can. If we talk about our physic, we cannot overwhelm men but we should try to do things by ourself as possible as we can. Do not try to be flighty.

Sometimes women need to be strong as men, always remember what men can do, we also can do it, in contrast, men not always can do what women can.

In some context, women don't dare to show off their strong behavior and wiser than men, since they know that man do not like woman who is better than he is. Is it fair for woman? Will man feel ashamed when woman are stronger than he is? So, what women should do then? One answer must be: Try to balance it, do what you (woman) can do and also look around others.

Will you have any comments for this post? Any comments are appreciated :)

Something I Just Think of

Have you ever think of why people have children? Can we don't have it and live happily?

Before I got some answers from many sources that people need children to continue their family's name, and it is the bond of the parents' relationship, and we also need to produce the human resource for the world. But do you satisfy with these answers? Or you have got any more answers to the question above?

I got another thinking of the question, I think why we should have baby. Maybe we just want to know how pain when mom was in labor, and the taste of life that people always said study, job, married, have babies, and DEATH.

I have found one that quite interesting to me, I always got blame from my parents when i don't do things as they told (I guess everyone have suffered those), so i feel like it's normal when we become our children parents, we will do the same as them. So what is the children for, don't we feel regret if our children will do the same things and we will do the same as what our parents do. Don't we just give them birth to let thing circle, or we often said life is circle.

And one more thing, people said when you are in labor, you will said you don't want the baby. But when you already give us to him/her and you look their faces, you will forget all the pain. Sometimes people said as a lady, she should try once in giving birth to baby or her life is meaningless, since she's got this right or role from the nature.

HOWEVER, if you ask me: Will you have baby if you are married, I would said "yes", because i think I also want to know how it hurt when my mom was in labor, and just like i said it is the role or the priority that men don't have.

Please leave any comments that you can think of.

Booming volunteer industry in Cambodia

Finding a volunteer work can be harder than finding job in western country such as England since it requires lot of qualification and experiences. However, working as volunteer in Cambodia is quite easier for foreigners.

Many people from the western countries are coming to do volunteer job in various Non Government Organization (NGO) in order to use their own skill to help the people in a developing country like Cambodia.

Laura Roberts, an English expatriate, has been living in Phnom Penh for nearly five months and working as a volunteer at Cambodia Women’s Development Agency (CWDA), which is a non government organization working on promoting self-sufficiency and self-reliance amongst Cambodian communities and the advancement of women’s economic and social rights.

Living in England, Roberts studied fine art at university and she was also a trained counselor and had worked as an art gallery assistant and librarian for over five years.

With short hair and blue eyes, Roberts has a lot of responsibilities in the CWDA organization. She is required to write report, proposal, maintain the database, teach English and vocational training for students at the organization.

Every day, she goes to work at 8am and teaches students at 9am at the organization. Besides staying in the office, writing reports, she sometimes goes the village with the staffs in the organization.

Walking into the class room, Roberts said that in the past three months, she had worked with a Cambodian volunteer, a first year student in design to clean, paint and fix the room so that the students have a nicer place to study.

Most of the children in the organization are the prosecutor, some were rape and some come from the poor family. They just live on the second floor of the organization.

It is quite hard for her to make a regular schedule to teach the students, because some of those go to study at public school in the morning and some in the afternoon. She is trying to adapt herself with them.

“It is quite easy to communicate with the children, though they know a little English. “They teach me Khmer, I teach them English”, adding that she is really enjoy her teaching time.

A big globe with colorful and difference signs were produced by the students. She said that at the first time she show them the map, and then ask them to make one. “They don’t know that Cambodia is just a small country in the world, they think that Cambodia is the world”.

Volunteering at CWDA, she said that it is a good job experience for her. In her country, she could not find a volunteer job. “In England, if you want to volunteer, you have to have a degree, lot of experience or even master degree”, she added.

Even though, there is no air-conditioning, only one computer for fifteen staffs, most of whom are over fifty already, she really enjoys working there. She said that “I love the women I work with; they are very strong and I learn a lot from them”.

Thuch Vichea, 20, a training student at CWDA, said that she was very happy to study with Laura. “I never wanted to miss her class, she did a lot of activities in the class so I would not get bored with the lesson and she also gave me some practical exercise”, she says, she misses the time she were training.

Furthermore, Clarisa Diaz, an architecture volunteer at Sahmakum Teang Tnaut organization (STT or Palm leave association) , said that she has been living in Cambodia for more than 6 months, and she really love living here. Especially in her house, she said that a lot of her friends are also working as a volunteer in various organizations with difference jobs.

Working as the volunteer in the organization, she said that “I start to learn the work of the staff by going with them to the community”.

Sarah French, 26, a volunteer teacher at Conversation with Foreigners organization (CWF), have been living in Cambodia for nearly a year. Transporting and communication with the people are quite hard for her, but she likes Khmer food and the living condition in Cambodia. She is going to live 9 months more in Cambodia.

“When I go to some places far away from the city, the motor taxi drivers don’t know where it is on the map, and it is hard to bargain for the price when you don’t know how much it should be”, she said

For Laura, It is not a bit deal for her living in Cambodia. She starts learning slowly. She rides a bicycle to work, goes to the market to buy vegetable, speaking a little bit of Khmer to communicate with people. “They honest, they don’t cheat me”, she said for the first time she bought the vegetable in the market when she just knew only a word in Khmer, ‘Muy’, which means ‘one’ in English.

Besides working, in her free time, Laura travels to provinces, goes to theater, and sometimes visits the students; especially she always rides her bicycle to every corner in the city. “I like to know the city well, so I like to get lost, and when I got lost, I went back to where I was”, she adds that she always feel safe though she get lost.

“I really love Phnom Penh, it is very friendly city. In England like London, nobody is friendly, they are tough and no emotion”, adding that she could imagine that if there is a robber robs her, people would come to help her.

She pays 120$ per month for an apartment, which is twice cheaper than in England. She explains that “The accommodation is nicer in Cambodia but the land lords don’t fix and repair the things in the apartment if there are broken like they would in England”.

Moreover, many foreigners think that volunteer is more romantic, go to the country side and saving people’ life, but Laura has a difference idea, she said “To me, volunteer is able to help in an organization for a specific program”.

“I pay for my organization, I want to be with people not money”, she said. Roberts doesn’t get any money from the organization and also have any jobs to support her living in Phnom Penh. She is not sure what she is going to do in the future.

Though she wants to stay in Cambodia, she said that she will either go back to her country or find a job with the same paid as Cambodian people in Phnom Penh. Because she thinks that it is unfair that foreigner can get higher paid.

Photo Story - An Reachtheany

This is a photo story of a street vendor at Wat Butom Park